"Bent or Broken is the Family Tree": My baby is turning 8 years old!

September 3, 2010

My baby is turning 8 years old!

Is doesn't seem that long ago, I was 18... living in my car and finding out I was pregnant. ...Scared and Alone with a Really tough choice on my hands. I prayed and cried a lot but the Lord told me we would be okay and of course he was right. Mickenzie saved my life... changed the course I was on for the better and helped me to grow as a person, a women and become a Mother. She is the light of my life...My heart and for a long time the only thing I could clam as good and right.

My baby is turning 8 yrs old this September 10th and I am shocked and Amazed. She is truly becoming her own person, creating friendships and working out issues. She can stand up for herself ( even though I'm always there for backup) She is learning to understand the big things in life, and ask the hard questions. 3 years ad she will be in Middle School?? Huh? I can't even think of it yet.

I am soooo proud of her. She is bright and sweet, with a heart the size of Texas. Kenzie is Beautiful from the inside out and I am so blessed to have her as a daughter.

Happy Birthday My Short Cake. Momma Loves you!!

XOXO,

Mom

Life, Family and Time

This is because I can't be with you everyday- Becasue we all have our on lives to live and Becasue we all need to remember we are bound together. On a journey that may lead us all in different direction only to end at the same place. Besides houses and cars and cloths and jobs and school and work and bills and , and , and ~all we have, all that is really important each other, is Family.

Life really is short~ I have learned that. We really don't have all the time we think we do. It can really come down to now or never.... I have lost 4 Very important people to me in the last 7 years. Some I could deal with better than others, some that were ready and that had lived long lives- others that I still cant belive wont be calling me in the next 5 min to ask if I heard what so and so has done now or if I have finally read that books she said is the steamist bestist book ever...

I just want to live my life knowing I made the effort. I have tried. I reached out and have done what I can consider the best I could do. So that I have no regrets, no only if I's or I could haves'!

I believe in following my own heart, not the worries, fears or opinion of others. I have to do what I believe is best for me, for my heart and my soul.

I don't wana!

I don't want to EVER tell my children, "sorry, I was to scared or rapped up in my own world to reach out to that Auntie or Grama or whom ever, when I had the chance." I don't want to tell them " I'm sorry for my mistake, but they aren't around anymore for US to get to know." because it will be an US not an I. It's not about just our selves, it's about our children. I am here, I am ready and I won't be the one to crush mine and my children’s chance at more people to rely on, more love in their lives, or more family to embraces them.