"Bent or Broken is the Family Tree": We Love You Always & Forever

June 22, 2010

We Love You Always & Forever

Psalm 23:1-6 ~The Lord is my shepherd;I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows;he leads me beside peaceful streams. He renews my strength.He guides me along right paths,bringing honor to his name.Even when I walk through the darkest valley,I will not be afraid,for you are close beside me.Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies.You honor me by anointing my head with oil.My cup overflows with blessings. Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life,and I will live in the house of the Lord forever.~

My Grandmother Mary E. Gale past away today June 22nd 2010 about 7 a.m. I am truly heart broken that I wasn't there to say goodbye in person, to hold her hand and kiss her cheek But I was fortunate enough to have been able to speak with her on the phone, her telling me she was fine and not to worry, that she was ready to go. I am trying to take comfort in the fact that she has gone home to Heaven to be with our Lord. She is reunited with my Grampa, her Husband Jim, my Aunt, her Daughter Olivia, my great great great Aunt Ukie and her Daddy. She wont hurt anymore, she is safe and she is happy. Today is also My daughter Mickennas' 2nd Birthday... So I am trying to be Thankful for the joy in our lives and be Happy and strong for my girls. My Grama wouldn't want it any other way...The Babies come first...She loves them, she loves us all soooo much! My Grandmother is a Strong, Beautiful and Intelligent women, Ruthless in her love for her family. I am honestly Honored to have know her and been apart of her life, her journey and her family. She taught us to be strong, to hold our heads high, to go after what we want, to never quit until we had it. She taught us it wasn't about money but about love. It wasn't how big your house but how many you could house, to never turning your back on the family or friends in need. That Desert could come before Dinner or Breakfast for that matter. And that she would give the clothes off her back, the shoes off her feet if you needed them. That she would do what ever it took to make sure we where all taken care of. She was a leader, A Women, A wife, A Mother, A Grandmother, A Great Grandmother-And so , so much more...

~If Ukie was the Glue and Grampa the Anchor the Grama

was the Center our family revolves around~

Grama~ I am thinking of you, in my heart, my thoughts and my prayers. I love you Grama, I love you sooo much! Thank you for fighting for so long, Thank you for holding on for us for all the time you did. You have really shaped us into better people and a better family. We will miss you but we will see you again. XOXO, Renea

Life, Family and Time

This is because I can't be with you everyday- Becasue we all have our on lives to live and Becasue we all need to remember we are bound together. On a journey that may lead us all in different direction only to end at the same place. Besides houses and cars and cloths and jobs and school and work and bills and , and , and ~all we have, all that is really important each other, is Family.

Life really is short~ I have learned that. We really don't have all the time we think we do. It can really come down to now or never.... I have lost 4 Very important people to me in the last 7 years. Some I could deal with better than others, some that were ready and that had lived long lives- others that I still cant belive wont be calling me in the next 5 min to ask if I heard what so and so has done now or if I have finally read that books she said is the steamist bestist book ever...

I just want to live my life knowing I made the effort. I have tried. I reached out and have done what I can consider the best I could do. So that I have no regrets, no only if I's or I could haves'!

I believe in following my own heart, not the worries, fears or opinion of others. I have to do what I believe is best for me, for my heart and my soul.

I don't wana!

I don't want to EVER tell my children, "sorry, I was to scared or rapped up in my own world to reach out to that Auntie or Grama or whom ever, when I had the chance." I don't want to tell them " I'm sorry for my mistake, but they aren't around anymore for US to get to know." because it will be an US not an I. It's not about just our selves, it's about our children. I am here, I am ready and I won't be the one to crush mine and my children’s chance at more people to rely on, more love in their lives, or more family to embraces them.