"Bent or Broken is the Family Tree": August 2010

August 22, 2010

I Miss U!

Hello..

I miss you! I don't know what else to say...I wish you where here. You're missing sooo much each and everyday. I think you'd be proud! I know I need your advise! I want to give you a hug and have you sing me to sleep at night! I want to tell you all about the new books I've read and talk about Anita, while we drink Chocolate Milk in bed! I want you to take the girls fishing, show them how its done... I want to hear your old stories of how the west was REALLY won! I want you to call me...I need to here your voice. I want to know your ALL , all right and that I'll see you again. I miss you I miss you I miss you!

XOXO,

Renea

August 4, 2010

Sister Happy!

So... Some of you may know I contacted Robby Luellen ( my Father) and found I had 2 more Sisters from his side of the Family. Robyn Luellen Wyatt , age 26 ( just married in 08) and Rosa Luellen, age 11. I am sooooooooooooo excited to be talking to both of them now.....

I just spoke with Robyn on the phone and she is sooo cute & sweet...totally down to earth. She seems just as excited about meeting me as I am about meeting her! She already mentioned vacation time for a visit!! Yeah :-)

She is pictured above~ isn't this the greatest pic? She is totally gorgeous! Love it!

and we also share a half sister Rosa:

She is a Sweet heart and so beautiful in and out. She reminds me lots of my baby Sister Mary! I think they would get along Great! I chat with Rosa and Robyn on line and am truly ecstatic about the future with my sister!

XOXO,

Renea

Life, Family and Time

This is because I can't be with you everyday- Becasue we all have our on lives to live and Becasue we all need to remember we are bound together. On a journey that may lead us all in different direction only to end at the same place. Besides houses and cars and cloths and jobs and school and work and bills and , and , and ~all we have, all that is really important each other, is Family.

Life really is short~ I have learned that. We really don't have all the time we think we do. It can really come down to now or never.... I have lost 4 Very important people to me in the last 7 years. Some I could deal with better than others, some that were ready and that had lived long lives- others that I still cant belive wont be calling me in the next 5 min to ask if I heard what so and so has done now or if I have finally read that books she said is the steamist bestist book ever...

I just want to live my life knowing I made the effort. I have tried. I reached out and have done what I can consider the best I could do. So that I have no regrets, no only if I's or I could haves'!

I believe in following my own heart, not the worries, fears or opinion of others. I have to do what I believe is best for me, for my heart and my soul.

I don't wana!

I don't want to EVER tell my children, "sorry, I was to scared or rapped up in my own world to reach out to that Auntie or Grama or whom ever, when I had the chance." I don't want to tell them " I'm sorry for my mistake, but they aren't around anymore for US to get to know." because it will be an US not an I. It's not about just our selves, it's about our children. I am here, I am ready and I won't be the one to crush mine and my children’s chance at more people to rely on, more love in their lives, or more family to embraces them.